Sunday, April 29, 2012

Pregnancy and Gods Plan

I still can't believe that I am finally on this journey called pregnancy. I remember wanting it so badly at times that my heart ached when I realized it wasn't the right time financially, emotionally, or my husband would tell me he simply wasn't ready with no explanation. I would convince myself that it was never going to happen and feel sorry for myself when others had the excitement of pregnancy and a new baby. I asked God to give me patience and guidance through waiting, I blamed Him and my husband at times for not giving me what I desired. I thought, "I'm ready, I'm old enough, I've learned alot and grown up". I didn't understand why my husband wasn't ready, some of our friends had babies, our siblings were starting families, "why can't we?"
Sitting here now, thinking about our 7 years of marriage tomorrow, writing this post while baby Hunter is kicking violently in my belly I feel so beyond blessed that God made me wait. His plan is the perfect plan. He has grown me and my husband into the people we are today to take on such a wonderful and lifechanging experience of bringing a child into this world and raising him. Our life experiences, changes, hard times, loss, marital struggles and battles have taught us and molded our personalities and relationship. I now understand why God made me wait and know it would have been at times harder if we had started a family sooner.
Pregnancy is an indescribable experience and feeling that can't truely be explained until you go through it. All the ups and downs, hormones, physical challenges you go through are exhausting. There are times I'm daydreaming about the little man growing inside me, I can't wait to meet him and see his daddy with him. Then my thoughts take over and I start dwelling about the delivery and freaking out about bringing him home and not knowing what the heck I'm doing?? Moms, I'm sure you can totally relate to this feeling?!
God answered my prayers and blessed me and my husband, who by the way is soooooo excited and more ready than ever to be a dad. My heart swells when he touches my belly and talks to Hunter. Seeing this big smile on his face makes me the happiest wife and mommy in the world. I thank God for an amazing 7 years of marriage with my best friend and partner for life.

4 comments :

  1. I loved reading this post about God's plan being the perfect plan. Your first 7 years of marriage have been a good time for growing together and bonding. Which is vitally important when expanding your family. Your child(ren) will be growing up in a loving home. Sometimes we don't know why things happen (or don't happen!)...but it's so nice when we get a tiny glimpse of God's awesome plan for us. It gives hope (to carry on)...and peace (knowing we're not in control of our future, but rather, Someone with infinite wisdom has it all under control). So lay back, hold on tight, and enjoy the ride...Things are about to get wild!!!

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  2. Oh yeah...and happy anniversary...you two love birds!

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  3. Thank you so much bekah. Ive learned so much about myself and our relationship that have truely changed me and made me realize what an awesome creator we have and His perfect plan for us!

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  4. Thank you so much bekah. Ive learned so much about myself and our relationship that have truely changed me and made me realize what an awesome creator we have and His perfect plan for us!

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